Ugh!

Today has been a rough day...I'm in California for the week for drs appointments for Porter and I and my dear Faja's 50th birthday. This morning I had an appointment with my midwife, no surprises, love her, baby boy is healthy, and everything is good...

Except that she wants me back in two weeks (say whaaaatttttt??)!! I was hoping to have another 6 weeks in Rexburg with Christian before a month here on my own, but it's looking like I'm going to have three weeks there and six here without him. Lemme tell you, these last few days have already been rough, I just feel like I'm missing a piece of me. So I called him when I left the office and had a good cry. We CAN do it, and it will be SO worth it when baby Benson Oliver [oh yeah,we picked a name!!] gets here in December.

Porter must know I'm having a rough day, because he's been really cuddly and after lunch, he kept grabbing my face and kissing me. It was the sweetest thing I have ever experienced and I am SO grateful that Heavenly Father has blessed me with such a beautiful, smart, and sweet boy!! 

Back to School

Well, we did it, we moved to Rexburg! 

Taylor, Delaney, and Andy drove up with us Saturday night and we stayed at Krissy's house in Salt Lake Sunday night before driving up to Rexburg on Monday.

 It's beautiful here, but saying that the weather is crazy would be a serious understatement! One minute its sunny and warm, the next cloudy and raining. [{ For example, one morning before we went to WalMart--for the millionth time since we've been here--we put Porter in shorts and a short sleeve t-shirt, and as I'm writing this the wind is blowing so hard that I've had to shut all the windows, and its started to rain}]

Our apartment is really cute, two bedrooms, one bath, and lots of closet space. I'm working on making it homey, hanging our pictures and what not, it seems a little silly since we are going to be here for such a short time before I head home to have the baby, but I want wherever we are to feel like home. Oh, and we bought a red couch that I'm kind of in love with the day we got here (pictures will come later). Overall I think I'm going to like it here, I'm ready for my first real fall and winter, I think...  

I'm excited for a real fall and to experience real seasons. I'm NOT for the three-ish weeks in November/December that Porter and I will be away from Christian <more on THAT later too> but I know it will all be worth it in the end.

Christian started school today, and he was pretty excited, I'm so happy for him, and SO proud to be his wife. That also means today is the first day in the last two weeks that Porter and I are alone for most of the day, as much as I sometimes still get nervous being his only companion for the day, I've kind of missed this time when I get to really watch him and see the little wheels turning in his head as he plays. There really is nothing better, or more difficult, than being a stay at home mom, and nowhere else I'd rather be!!

Soooooo long Tay Tay!!

So yesterday I tried to write this blog yesterday. In fact, I did, and it was long and perfectly worded and you all would have loveeeed it...BUT, when I went to post it i got a lameee message that told me the link was broken. What are the odds!! So, let's try again...

My whole life-minus 15 months- I've spent with my little sister. Even when we didn't get along, I always knew that when it came down to it, she would always love and protect me from anything. I knew from the beginning that it was not going to be easy to say goodbye to her, but last Wednesday that is exactly what I set out to do.
PAUSE...REWIND....
Sunday was Taylor's farewell. The WHOLE family, along with pretty much everyone she has ever met, went to sacrament meeting at the YSA ward. The first speeker was Justin Wait, who was also going to enter the MTC that Wednesday. He gave a really good talk about the Book of Mormon, and welcomed the spirit into the chapel. After his talk, we -taylor,kara,delaney, me, rachel, and jane-got up to sing. We sang a medley of Teach me to Walk and Love one Another, it is truly one of my favorite songs that I have ever heard, the way they compliment eachother, is beautiful. There were a few tears, and I was so glad that we were able to sing one last time with Taylor(wanna hear it? click here). Following our song, she gave her talk.She spoke about being a disciple of Christ. Every word she said, she said with conviction, and the more she talked, the more convinced I became that she was on her way to do what she was meant to do, to be a missionary, to teach the people of Texas,and to bring them the gospel.She ended her talk with her testimony in song. She sang a song called  "With all of my heart," and I don't believe there was a dry eye in the chapel. It was asolutely amazing. The spirit in that room was SO strong, I could feel it in the very deepest part of my heart. My sweet little sister has the strongest testimony, and not only am I proud of her, but I am proud that Heavenly Father trusted me to come to this earth and be her big sister, she has taught me more than I could ever begin to describe, and I am grateful every single day for her presence in my life.
Following Sacrament meeting, the Wilson side of the family came over to my dad's house for a father's day/Taylor's day celebration. We barbequed and enjoyed eachother's company until President Wilkinsen and his wife came over to set Taylor apart. Before he did so, he talked to her about being a representative of our Savior while she is on her mission, and the things he wants her to remember as she leaves and when it is time to come home. He then asked a few people--grandma, grandpa, dad,kara,uncle larry, and bishop dunham-- to say whatever they had to say before she left. It was definitely an emotional time (right, auntie kyle?) and it was a time I don't think that the people in the room will forget it anytime soon. After that we all sang a couple songs with Stephy playing the piano, and then most people left. For the rest of the night, there were poeple coming and going and lots and lots of "see you laters." We were supposed to leave late Sunday night, buuuut people didn't leave until almost 1 a.m. so we all decided it would be best to sleep for a few hours before we started our drive.
We ended up leaving at 5:30 Monday morning. Dad drove most of the way.We stopped in Vegas and a couple other times to stretch, but overall the drive wasn't bad at all (I took lots of naps :)...



 We arrived in Orem at around 3:30, got ready and headed to Cafe Rio for dinner (my favvvvvvv) and then sweet dessert at Sub Zero (also my favvvvvv). We were all pretty tired [it's strange how sitting in a car can make you so exhausted], so we didn't do anything else that night, but Taylor, Tucker, and I were up early the Tuesday morning to head to the Salt Lake Temple, it was a wonderful experience, and I was so glad to share it with the two of them (in the short amount of time I was able to spend with Tucker, he became family pretty quick!). We did a session there, and then hurried back to pick up Dad and Delaney. They didn't have any food in the house so they were starving and we headed to Smash Burger-okayyy so we did a lot of eating out, don't judge!-and then to the University mall so that Tay could get a few things. From there we headed back up to Temple Square, we we met up with Danielle :) walked around the visitor's center, and took a tour of the Conference Center. I was amazed by it's size, by the art in that adorned the walls, and the massive meadow, yes, meadow on the roof!

picture of the temple taken from the roof of the conference center

When we left Temple Square we went to dinner with Krissy, Hayley, and Robbie at Cafe Normandy. Dinner was d-e-licious, and the time we were able to spend just hanging out with Krissy and her family afterward was exactly what Taylor needed. I think it was good for her to be able to just be around people that she cares about instead of trying to see everyone she's ever known in Utah the night before she leaves. We got back to Grandma Sherry's house pretty late, and a couple of her good friends came over to say goodbye.

     By the time I woke up Wednesday morning, Taylor and my Dad had already left to Target to get her last few little things that she needed to take with her that day. They got back just in time for everyone to get ready and head to Cafe Rio again, to meet up with Garrett and Regan so that they could see her off.... and then we headed to the MTC.

First thing first...The iPhone handoff...

Then as we pulled up to the curb, a couple of missionaries came out and grabbed her luggage, and we all got out to say a very quick goodbye...

...Daddy, "brother"Tucker, little Laney, and Me...

And then we left her there...

The drive back was a little more difficult than the way there. At one point we heard a sniffle, and Tucker looked back and me and then at Delaney, and asked if she was crying (she swears she never cries). Sure enough, under Tucker's light blue raybans, her little eyes were full of tears. I laid my head on her lap, held her hand, and triend to fall asleep. This is going to be the next 18 months of my life. Hanging out with sweet Delaney and Tucker (and BABE!!!) and though it will be hard at times,I know that she is on the lord's errand and that she will be blessed. I am looking forward to hearing her stories, and to feeling her love of the Savior through her service and her letters.
 We listened to Disney pandora for a long time from a little outside of Vegas all the way to about Barstow, and we all sang along. We didn't sleep as much as the first drive either. From St. George all the way to almost Riverside, everyone was awake. I drove from St. George to Barstow, and we made it home a little before midnight. Dad helped me get my bags, Tucker promised we'd hang out soon, and I hurried inside to see Babe! {it was a great trip but I truly had missed him TERRIBLY!}
I am so proud of both of my sisters, and I am greatly looking forward to the day when we do the whole thing over again with Ashy!



GRAND AMERICA 2011!! hahah

faith as a little child

Last night I got to go with Babe to his sister's house so that he could help give his (our) sick little nephew a blessing. I watched as my brother-in-law explained to Isaac that they were going to bless him by the power of the holy melkezidac priesthood and that heavenly father was going to help him feel better. Then I listened. I listened as-- in spanish--my sweet husband put oil on his little head, and Marco blessed him with health, that his fever would break and that he would feel better. Though I will admit that I did not know the exact words that were being spoken, Tears bured in my eyes as I felt the spirit in that room, and in my heart I understood what was being said. I couldn't help but look forward to the day when Babe can do that for our children, he is going to be such an amazing daddy...someday.



And you know what...as we sat there, Isaac's fever broke and he felt well enough to play with us again.. the priesthood is a powerful thing, and the tender mercies of the Lord are undeniable when we are willing to see his hand in all things.

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First dance

ooooh it's about that time In all the recent craziness, I completely forgot to tell you all about a special moment (or couple of moments) on the wedding day!!
Moment #1
My dear sweet daddy made a slide show of pictures of me and my maaaannnnnn from birth to now...it was beautiful. At one point I went to practice my little song with Taylor, and when I came out, Babe was sitting on the couch in front of the televison where it was playing, with tears in his eyes, on his face and as we walked out to the car together to get something he explained his very personal, incredibly sweet reasons for his tears. I was and continue each and every day to be in awe of him. I am so grateful that I married a man who is so comfortable with himself, and his feelings that he can do things like that.
Moment #2
Babe and I had our first dance to "Marry Me" by train, and it was wonderful. After that I had my dance with my Daddy. I picked the song "In My Arms" by Mark Wills. It's the perfect song for a Daddy-Daughter dance, and especially for me and my dad. He always tells me a story about when I was a little girl and he used to rock me to sleep and says "do you remember when you were little and I used to hold you in my arms..." and so as I'm sure you can imagine it was an emotional thing already, but toward the end of the song he pulled Christian back out onto the dance floor and had him dance with me again and said "these are your arms now."At which point, I of course began to cry....

I'll never, NEVER forget that moment...

...and it just keeps getting better!

Sweet Music

A Constant Reminder

I would not feel right if I did not acknowledge what I experienced yesterday. Yesterday I witnessed the single most amazing memorial service I've ever been to. I've never seen such an outpouring of love for someone and their family. I was and continue to be in awe of the beauty of it all. The music was beautiful [Calee wrote the most beautiful song I've ever heard in tribute to her Mom and she and her sisters sounded like angels singing it! The Gray's played 'I know that my redeemer lives' and little Taelyn sang her sweet testimony loud and strong with 'I Am a child of God?'] Bishop Pat Moore and President Chuck Neilsen spoke about her life, and her faith, and her spirit and joy she put into everything she did was felt by everyone in attendance. At one point Bishop Moore asked all who had been in any kind if choir she directed to stand...it was amazing to watch a majority of the chapel and cultural hall stand. Rita truly put music in the hearts of all that she taught, and her influence will be felt far beyond the congregation that gathered yesterday. She will live on, as we continue to 'Sing for Rita'

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Engaged to be MARRIED!!!

...My Babe says that's the proper term, but no matter how you choose to say it I'M GETTING MARRIED!! 
This is how it happened:
Pretty much every time Christian comes over he texts me to let me know that he's here and I get excited and run out to meet him, it started a couple of months ago and it's fun so it stuck. Last night it was the same thing, EXCEPT when i got outside and looked around the corner my car looked like this...
and my wonderful, amazing, handsome man was on one knee! I couldn't stop jumping up and down, he says that it took me exactly three jumps to get down the stairs and over to him, but i think that's a bit of an exaggeration :) maybe not, it's a little hazy, but when I got over to him, he opened the ring box, and asked me to marry him!! I continued to jump up and down in his arms, and when he got a hold of me and I couldn't jump any more I kept kissing him and doing the feet thing, you know what I'm talking about, the happy feet thing, like this little guy...

...eventually he said sooooo was that a yes?  and I said, YES, YES, YES, YES!! I couldn't be happier, and it couldn't have been more perfect!! About two minutes after he slipped the ring on my finger Taylor and Kara pulled into the driveway, they sure do have perfect timing!! They were excited and water-eyed just like me. Lucky enough, they even took pictures, cause I was way to caught up in everything to do it myself :) We went to BJ's for dinner (thank you kara!) to celebrate, and you better believe we treated ourselves to a white chocolate macadamia nut pazuki-gotta have a treat sometimes!


AND SO to sum it all up: I AM MARRYING THE MOST AMAZING MAN THAT I KNOW, ON DECEMBER 18TH, 2010 in the SAN DIEGO TEMPLE!!!! I am RIDICULOUSLY excited and I fell so blessed to be able to spend eternity with my best friend!

Where did my summer go?!

the loooove of my life, at a going away party for the RVMC boys :)

School started again last week...that means a few things

1. My Boys are gone-yep, not just 1 or 2, this time Utah has stolen them all. I'm sad, but at the same time SO happy for them to be able to start this new part of their lives...hey, at least this time when they left me they've got phones :)
2. I have a lot lees time to spend with Babe, he's a full-time student and a personal trainer, which means he's got lots of things to do, he still manages to spend time with me, even if it means he has to wake up at 6am to get to the gym and train me on top of all his other responsibilities, he does it...I think he likes me a little bit, eh?
3. Amber's about to go back to school too....hmmmm, which leads me to number 4...
4. I need to find myself a hobby, or throw myself into my callings, or idk, but something, at the moment I have way too much free time!

One more thing....

I'm back on the HCG bizzzzness
It's been good to me so far, down 11lbs
before I take that next big "step" (if you know what I mean) I'd like to be more liiiike -45
I've got quite a few more to loose, but I can do it
you know, look more like this: 

For now, I'm just ridiculously happy to be at the point in my life that I am at, not ALWAYS perfect, but beautiful nonetheless :)